The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? "I the LORD search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a man according to his conduct, according to what his deeds deserve." Jeremiah 17:9,10
Heart Surgery
October 14, 2008
"I found what appaled me; a zoo of lusts, a bedlam of ambition, a nursury of fears, a harem of fondled hatreds. My name was legion." Surprised By Joy, page 181
“My heart is like a highway, like a city without walls or gates. Nothing so false, so frivolous, so is so absurd, so impossible or so horrid that it cannot obtain access, and that at any time, or in any place.” John Newton
FROM ADONIRAM JUDSON IN A LETTER TO HIS SISTERS –1828
……I have this day moved into a small cottage, which I have built in the woods, away from the haunts of men. It proves a stormy evening, and the desolation around me accords with the desolate state of my own mind, where grief for the dear departed combines with sorrow for present sin, and my tears flow at the same time over the forsaken grave of my love and over the loathsome sepulcher of my own heart.
John Owen (died 1683) said that there are two things that are suitable to humble the souls of men. One, a due consideration of God, and then of ourselves. Of God in his greatness, glory, holiness, power, majesty and authority; and of ourselves in our mean, abject and sinful condition.
God taught Owen to consider both: to let God, the Sovereign Creator, be God in his thought and life, and to recognize his own guilt and uncleanness. The latter, he held, was especially important; ‘the man that understands the evil of his own heart, how vile it is, is the only useful, fruitful and solidly believing and obedient person….’
A man must abhor himself before he can serve God aright. (Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners – of whom I am the worst! 1 Timothy 1:15) Owen, proud by nature, had been brought low in and by his conversion, and thereafter he kept himself low by recurring contemplation of his inbred sinfulness. J. I. Packer A QUEST FOR GODLINESS page 193
“You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. Revelation 2:4-5
ALMIGHTY God, Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, Maker of all things, judge of all men; We acknowledge and bewail our manifold sins and wickedness, Which we, from time to time, most grievously have committed, By thought, word, and deed, Against thy Divine Majesty, Provoking most justly thy wrath and indignation against us.
We do earnestly repent, And are heartily sorry for these our misdoings; The remembrance of them is grievous unto us; The burden of them is intolerable. Have mercy upon us, Have mercy upon us, most merciful Father; For thy Son our Lord Jesus Christ's sake, Forgive us all that is past; And grant that we may ever hereafter Serve and please thee In newness of life,
To the honour and glory of thy Name; Through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
From the 1662 Book of Common Prayer