This "tent" we live in is temporary. Our bodies in this life, as incredible as they are, are still 1.0. Death promises a transformation of an unimaginable kind. So go ahead, wonder a little. And let hope arise.
If Caterpillars Only Knew
March 11, 2009
As I approach my own end, which cannot now be long delayed, I find Jesus' outrageous claim to be, himself, the resurrection and the life, ever more captivating and meaningful.
Quite often, waking up in the night as the old do, and feeling myself to be half out of my body, so that it is a mere chance whether I go back into it to live through another day, or fully disengage and make off, hovering thus between life and death, seeing our dear earth with its scents and sounds and colors, as I have known and loved them, more, perhaps, as Bernanos said, than I dared to admit; recalling the golden hours of human love and human work, at the same time vouchsafed a glimpse of what lies ahead, Eternity rising in the distance, a great expanse of ineffable light - so placed, I hear Jesus' words ring triumphantly through the universe, spanning my two existences, the one in Time drawing to a close and the one in Eternity at its glorious beginning.
So at last I may understand, and understanding believe, see my ancient carcass, prone between the sheets, stained and worn like a scrap of paper dropped in the gutter, muddy and marred with being trodden underfoot, and, hovering over it, myself, like a butterfly released from its chrysalis stage and ready to fly away.
Are caterpillars told of their impending resurrection? How in dying will they will be transformed from poor earth-crawlers into creatures of the air, with exquisitely painted wings?
If told, do they believe? Is it conceivable to them that so constricted an existence, as theirs should burgeon into as gay and lightsome a one as a butterfly's? I imagine the wise old caterpillars shaking their heads - no, it can't be; it's a fantasy, self-deception, a dream. Similarly, out wise ones.
Yet in the limbo between living and dying, as the night clocks tick remorselessly on, and the black sky implacably shows not one single streak or scratch of gray, I hear those words: "I am the resurrection and the life," and feel myself to be carried along on a great tide of joy and peace.
Malcolm Muggeridge
BREAD AND WINE, page 284-285